I’m spending Christmas alone, and before you start pitying: It is my own choice, and I’m happy about it! I was originally supposed to spend Christmas volunteering.
The last four years I’ve been blessed so much by being invited into people homes and have Christmas with them. This year I wanted to “give back”, so I signed up to volunteer helping out in an volunteering Organization called ‘Give Christmas Meaning’. I was looking forward to it, but wasn’t able to help because I am too ill. As some of you know, I’m fighting chronic illness and I was hoping it would be a bit more stabilized so I could go out and do something, kind of give back to everyone that have given me an amazing Christmas the last four years. I planned to just stay home, at first I was really exited but then the fear came up in me, I know that (hopefully) all my friends here on Facebook have Christmas with friends and family, and then I would just sit as a loner at home in Christmas time. I then decided to look at It in a positive way, and remind myself that this season is about celebrating Jesus being born, coming into our lifes. God had made a way for us to come back to Him, which is really the most beautiful thing ever happened in this world, and when I think about that it doesn’t matter where I am or who I’m with as long as I have that in mind. Before my brother died we made plans to stay at my place just the two of us, to have steak, potatoes and sauce and then watch the Transporter movies, unfortunately we didn’t get to do that before he died. Then I thought: Oh if I’m going to be sick and at home I might as well do something to honor and remember him. I will therefore, after posting this, make me a juicy steak, heaps of sauce and potatoes, and enjoy some relaxing time at home. This is also a great time to sit back and reflect on the year that has gone. My year has been hard, great, and challenging, especially with illness filling up more and more in my life unfortunately. I try to stay positive, which I may say to not sound too selfish, I’ve become pretty good at being! I’m so thankful that when I’m sick I have friends coming over with dinner, buying me groceries, driving me places. It’s so amazing to have that kind of nourishing and helpful network that just takes so well care of me, I am overwhelmed by your love. Thank you! According to my illness it kind of have its own “life”. I’ve learned the hard way this year that I can only do what I’m capable of, not always what I want, and that is OKAY. The most important thing is to take care of myself, and let God do the rest. Ending, I would like to say thank you to everyone I’ve spend Christmas with the last four years, everyone helping me out time and time again while being sick, all the invitations for Christmas and for all you that pray for me everyday. it means the world to me to have a network of people that shows Gods love to me every single day, it makes me want to be more like Christ and hopefully next year I’ll be stable enough to be able to give something back in the way I’ve been blessed. Merry Christmas and a happy new year to all. xx
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AuthorAmelie Maria Pedersen / Archives
October 2016
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